I don't do internet diagnoses, but before you make any career- or life-altering decisions:
You need to meet with a psychiatrist (MD) and be screened for depression.
Being Depressed doesn't feel the way you think it does, and you're throwing up several flags.
Please consider that your emotions right now might not be what you
think they are, and that for mild depression (which one often sees in people in stressful life situations), very mild medications can be greatly efficacious.
Please, please take this advice seriously.
- an anonymous health care professional, who's been where you are.
You need to meet with a psychiatrist (MD) and be screened for depression.
Being Depressed doesn't feel the way you think it does, and you're throwing up several flags.
Please consider that your emotions right now might not be what you think they are, and that for mild depression (which one often sees in people in stressful life situations), very mild medications can be greatly efficacious.
Please, please take this advice seriously.
- an anonymous health care professional, who's been where you are.